My mommie came home today! YAY! I'm so happy. I think that was the highlight of my day. After she came to get us  Chase came over and we all went to Chili's. My mom came home with a fiance! NOT  a boyfriend! ;) how cute is that! He asked her on the boat of their cruise in front of everyone with a mic and a long speech! Hmm .. nothing else to talk about. I was reading my bible just now and I found this footnote that i really like...

*pRoMiSe*

"He promises not to let you be tempted more than you can handle"

Before there's heavy breathing and a backseat, theres a door. A way out. Before there's a friend's test paper to cheat off of, there's a window to study by. Temptations can sometimes get to hot for you to handle on your own, but only beacause you've passed up a long line of escape hatches alone the way- places where God was warning you to turn back, to trust him, to bail out with his parachute of protection. I youf can learn to avoid temtation when it's just a sprinkle, before it builds into a driving rain that hits yo ufrom all sides, you'll find life alot easier, guilt a lot rarer, and the warm safe feeling of living under god's umbrella.He always gives you a way out, over and over again, far in advance of the 40-foot drop-off at the end. And even up there, when you're hanging on by your fingernails- if you'll call on him to help you and if you'll stop trying ti grit your teeth and fight the battle in your own strangth, he'll be right there to put you back on solid ground.

"Therefore let him who thinks he stands take heed lest he fall. No temtaion has overtaken you except such as is commong to man; but God is faithful, who will not allow you to be tempted beyond what you are able, but with the temtation will also make the way of escape, that you may be able to bear it." *1 Cor 10:12-13*

hmm .. not much has been going on today. been bored all day. got up early and went to church so i feel good :) i didn't want to go alone so i called my friend at 8am and was like rise and shine your taking me to church and sitting through it with me. he didn't like the idea very much but did it anyways .. hehe. i get to go back tonight for the parent meeting for camp wow! i don't know what to write .. there has been absolutely nothing going on. i went to the movies with brittany sykes last night we went to see harry potter 3. god i don't see how anyone can stand those things i ran my cell fone battery dead playing on it cuz i couldn't stand the movie!!! :( but i did run into an old friend that i haven't seen/ talked to in a yr. so it was cool. he walked by me like 4 times just staring at me like he knew me and i was staring right back cuz he looked sooo familiar. finally his friend comes up to me and was like are you kristen? and i said yes is that richard and aha! i was right it was! so i went over there and talked to him and we "reunited" our friendship. haha i didn't think i would ever see him again cuz he lives in canton. he's getting old he's 19 now! well i'm going to go now not much else to say ill write again tomorrow!

my mommy comes home tomorrow!

ohh i was looking at this calentdar i found in this room im in and it's really cool each month has like inspiring quotes and i wana write them cuz i really like them ...

• January- don't count the days, make the days count
• February- flexible people never get bent out of shape
• March- life is 10% what happens to you and 90% what you do WITH what happens to you
• April- when you help someone up a hill, uyou get that much closer to the top YOURSELF
• May- opportunity never arrives IT'S HERE!
• June- To the world you may be one person but to one person you may be the world
• July- The winds of grace are always blwing, but you have remember to raise your sail
• August- Success consists of getting up once oftener than you fall down.
• September- don't let success go to your head or failure go to your heart
• October- ong good wish changes nothing, one good decision changes everything.
• November- If you don't start, you won't arrive!
• December- There is a choice you have to make in everything you do and you must always keep in mind the choice you make.. MAKES YOU!

Man am I bored right now.. and pissed. Brittany and I were supposed to go to the movies tonight but no her parent's had to be mean. They never let her do anything. So now I'm stuck here on a Friday night doing nothing. Oh well. Maybe I can come up with something to do. I'm feeling depressed again right now. I don't know what it is. I've been happy all day yesterday and today, and then *bam* it hits me again out of no where. It's like no matter what I can't get it to go away. Even if everything in my life is going well. The only way I can keep the depression gone is by doing other things to keep my mind off being depressed. I don't even know WHY I'm depressed, I just am. I can't wait until Camp Wow. I said in one of my other entries I've been trying to find a closer relationship with God, and for some reason I feel like he's really tugging at me to go to this camp so I'm hoping some kind of miricle or something will happen with my life. Not with the people around me, I know they can't change unless THEY want to. But I'm hoping to change myself to become a better person.Then try and help others do the same. I want to completely turn my life around and start from scratch. I always say "yeah yeah, I'm going to this camp" and I sign up. But then I find some dumb excuse when the people call me about getting my money turned in or something like that to not go. I really am going this time. Something is telling me I need to go, and I feel like God is pulling me towards this. I know I already said that so I'm just going to change the subject now. Haha

Anyways, when I was at Brittany's house earlier we were sitting there eating ice cream and watching TV and we got on the subject of past lifes. They say everytime some dies someone is reborn. So maybe we do have a past life and we just don't know about it. We watched some 3 hours report on TV about it and they were talking about like keeping a dream diary and write down your dreams every night. You dream every night at least 5-7 times whether you remember them or not *you only remember the ones that really disturb you* but they said like if you lay and bed and just think about it, it may come to you. But back to the original subject, do that every morning when you wake up try to remember what you dreamed about and then write it in a dream diary and piece it all together. I don't know if I personally believe that because we dream about what we have been worrying about, thinking about, or going through at the time. I know I do. But then they were saying that when your young you can remember your past life a little bit. Then they showed this little 2 yr. old boy *I think I believe this part because I don't believe that a 2 yr. old could be this good of an actor!!* anyways, they showed him rolling around in the grass outside screaming "I'm dying, I've been shot!! Please help I'm dying!" Little creepy or what?? He was holding himself like he had been shot and looked like he was seriously about to go into some kind of wierd panic attack or die. It was creepy. Plus they were also bringing the bible into it. Like supposedly somewhere in the bible it mentions something about having a past life. They think that the little boy died in a war or something in his past life. I don't know if I believe it or not. It's way to complex and over my head. That's just crazy to think that you could have a past life .. hmm ... who knows!

hmm.. today was ok I guess. Nothing to complain about. I still haven't emailed that counselor, I've been meaning to do that. I just got back from swimming. I'm so glad that Chase decided he would go, because at first he said he wasn't going anywhere near my long story, let's just say they had a bad meet* When I was talking to my dad last night one of the subjects was Chase, or any other guy I decide to go out with, and how he jumps my case when I mention boyfriend or a guys name. He promised to be nice to Chase and  to get to know him before he judged him! This was my perfect chance to get things right with them!!!!! :) Sure enough, Chase went, and they became better friends than I ever immagined. After they left my dad tells me, "For what it's worth, I think you chose a great guy from what I see" That made me so happy. Anyone who knows my dad knows that when it comes to guys... all hell breaks loose .. LITERALLY! I had fun though. We played Marco Polo * my first time!! :)*  I cheated and peeked! hehe And while Owen and Chase played football with my brothers me and Brittany surfed. We ordered pizza... yata yata, and everything was all gravy! Jordan Newman and his cousing Matt came over while Chase and Owen were over. I couldn't really tell if that bothered them or not. Jordan is into Brittany and so is Owen. So that could have caused some problems. Brittany kept throwing some stuff into Chases face about me and I think he was getting upset. I asked her to stop but she didn't.:-/ ohh wel .. I'm excited!! I get my top braces off next Thursday, and Camp Wow is comming up! got a busy schedule for July! Lots of vacations! Ok, well, I'm pretty much babbling about nothing so I'm leaving! We might be going to the lake tomorrow! YAY! ok bye!

****4 days til my mom gets home from mexico and i getta see her!!!!!!!

What if the armies of the Lord
Picked up and dusted off their swords
Vowed to set the captives free
And not let satan have one more

What if the church, for heaven's sake
Finally stepped up to the plate
Took a stand upon God's promise
And stormed hell's rusty gates

What if His people prayed
And those who bare His name
Would humbly seek His face
And turn from their own way

And what would happen if we prayed
For those raised up to lead the way
Then maybe kids in school could pray
And unborn children see light of day

What if the life that we pursue 
Came from a hunger for the truth
What if the family turned to Jesus
Stopped asking Oprah what to do

He said that they would hear
His promise has been made
He'll answer loud and clear
If only we would pray

If My people called by My name
If they'll humble themselves and pray
If My people called by My name
If they'll humble themselves and pray

What if His people prayed

WHAT IF WHAT IF!?!?!?!!?!?! maybe we'd have a better society and world ... but no .. this is the way things are .. and the way things are always going to be .. sadly